Non, je ne regrette rien

happy with undercoat beginning…

This morning I photographed my first layer of a big drawing (380 x 505 mm) after a week of laying on the under-colour in Sennelier oil pastels.

A couple of hours later…  Uh oh – I’m not feeling the love.

Scuttled.

And…that’s it.  No regrets.

A few hours later:  In hindsight, every work which is labour intensive needs to be believed in.  It is a huge effort but it will be worth it.  In this case, I didn’t have quite enough belief (or enthusiasm) in the piece for all the effort I knew I was going to have to put into it.  That’s probably the primary reason I let it go.

PS:  Another reason for dumping the picture above was that it was too similar to “Rhapsody in Gold” drawn in 2017.

“Rhapsody in Gold”
August 2017

 

18 thoughts on “Non, je ne regrette rien

    1. juliepodstolski Post author

      Hi Lela, this is a reason I like to share these events – because so many of us intimately know these scenarios. Did you feel a sense of release/relief afterwards?

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  1. Sherry Telle

    Nearly finished a 1/2 sheet detailed watercolour and foolishly added gouache. I am at this moment debating on whether to scratch it or fix it. I feel your pain!

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    1. juliepodstolski Post author

      Sorry about that, Sherry. Perhaps you feel pain but in my case, I can honestly say I didn’t. The main ‘thing’ I felt was impatience. I wasn’t in the right head space to do this extremely labour intensive piece. Why didn’t I just put it aside for another month or year? I’m not sure. I can only think that I didn’t believe in the composition.

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  2. rhodjoy

    I would’ve framed it, Julie! Had a wonderful week so far of tearing up and throwing out all the old art work from years back that I now distinctly hate! It was quite rewarding actually, now I can fill the space up with more…..what?? I’ll think seriously about it……

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    1. juliepodstolski Post author

      I’ve done what you did this week many times over the years. It is my nature to cull – I’m the opposite of a hoarder. I agree with you, it is very satisfying and liberating. I also love the annual junk-on-the-verge event – but tend to put out such interesting items that they are all long taken before the rubbish truck arrives.

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  3. anna warren portfolio

    Isn’t it a relief to just press the ‘reject’ button? Not all the time of course, but sometimes when you just know you aren’t going to be satisfied with what you are producing. It is a brave decision, but it is also the sign of a mature artist – when we are starting out we are more accepting of our own work, and unwilling to rip something up, maybe there is the fear of never producing anything any better, but with maturity comes the knowledge that you can and will. And of course the reasons for dumping something are many and varied, sometimes nothing to do with the quality of the work at all, just to do with how we feel about it.

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    1. juliepodstolski Post author

      Sometimes it can be a cool and calculated decision to throw a piece of work away. This one was more like a reflex reaction. I was drawing and then an instant later my hand was scribbling over the page. My hand took control even before my brain gave it permission. I accept that it was the right decision. (Clever hand!)

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  4. Nick

    You listened to your inner Yoda. I was amazed when I saw the first picture , then was more amazed when you threw it away ! Thank you for helping me do the same when I have to do it!

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    1. juliepodstolski Post author

      Hi Nick, thank you so much for your comment. I will have to look up what a Yoda is. Sometimes it is hard to understand quite why one does something – but if that action can help another person, then that must be a good thing. I appreciate your words to me.

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