I have not used my new paper, Velin BFK Rives, very much yet. After two drawings which succeeded, I fell off my horse (so to speak) with the one below.
Though I may have sounded gung ho in my post about chucking out the drawing “Joy” two weeks ago* the fact is I was winded by my fall and my confidence was bruised. You know what any riding instructor will say when her student falls off? “Get back onto your horse at once!”
I couldn’t do it straight away. I didn’t want to ride my new horse, Velin BFK Rives, any more. I wanted to go back to my dependable old horse, Pescia. I was curled up on the ground in misery. I have two pieces of my old Pescia paper left so decided to just go back and do a drawing on one of the pieces. I had had enough of messing with new papers. So I began. It felt so good, smooth and silky. Ahhh – that’s what I was used to. But using the Pescia didn’t make me happy: quite the reverse. I was drawing on my old Pescia and grieving at the same time – for this paper which I only had two pieces of. Gosh I was depressed. I was IN the comfort zone but it wasn’t going to get me anywhere, was it?!
Then I had the idea. I still needed to go forward. The BFK Rives was probably not at fault in my failed drawing “Joy”. It was a compositional problem. So rather than blaming the paper (the new horse), why not do this current drawing on Rives as well as Pescia? I will clearly see how both perform with the identical subject and I will surely learn something.
So this is what I am doing. After mapping in the under-colours on the two papers, I will complete the Rives drawing before working with the Pescia. Here is the way the Rives drawing looks so far…(still with most of the geisha to layer).
I am enjoying working on the Rives and I feel confident that I CAN work this paper. It will be fascinating to see the two completed drawings side by side. Will one be more intense than the other? Will I be able to get the depth of colour with one that I can achieve in the other? I will find out – and so will you.
I went right back to a very old photo as source material. I photographed the image in February 2005 on my old film camera. I drew it in the same year. The drawing has not been in my possession for at least six or seven years. I am not going to look at the photo of my 2005 drawing until I am finished this pair as I don’t want to be influenced by what I did back then. Finally, when I do check it out, I look forward to seeing if and how my pencil work has changed in a decade.
From feeling hopeless, I am now happy again, sitting astride my new horse and moving forward with her. “Trot on.”
* The Only Thing I Ever Got From You Was Sorrow is my post a fortnight ago about the failed drawing “Joy”.
Afterword: September 2015
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