The Only Thing I Ever Got From You Was Sorrow
It is ironic that the title for the above drawing was to be “Joy” for, to quote David Bowie, “The only thing I ever got from you was sorrow”. I have done more to the colours since I took this photo; pushed and pulled, added and subtracted, all the time eroding the integrity of the pencil work. Some areas by now look like a much-used dishcloth!
Two other drawings have succumbed to the wrecking ball this week. One was drawn late last year and the other a couple of months ago. The first, “Greetings” committed the sin of being boring. Other than that there was nothing particularly wrong with it – except the hand was rather weak.
“Materializing” was a drawing whose problems I thought I had solved until I looked at it more recently. Viewed alongside three strong drawings from this year, it showed itself to be a poor relation.
It was easy to say goodbye to those two drawings. It wasn’t done on the spur of the moment plus I was already mentally removed from them. However for “Joy” it was much harder to let go. I’m not going to put it away for later because I know it is fatally flawed and I’ve spent enough time trying to make it work. To (nearly) quote our ex-Prime Minister, Gough Whitlam, “Well may we say ‘God save the Queen’, because nothing will save this drawing”.
Of course I’m sad but – in the end – it’s only art.